Getting started..

I’m torn. I’m torn between subjects that I passionately love. I’m currently taking an online course run by the Arizona State university in Astronomy. I have burning passion for astronomy, physics and all things science. The only trouble is that my Maths is shit. Now, at 35, I wish I had paid more attention in maths class instead of daydreaming about what knickers Sandy Blake had on and  how do I get my hands in them.

I also love literature. I buy books constantly. I currently have, to name a few, titles by Orwell, Dickens and Twain sitting on my shelf not being read. It’s criminal. Not to mention a few casual books on social engineering, card tricks, a killer shark and an almost finished book about Abraham Lincoln and the American civil war. My problem is:

I want to know about everything. But the more I learn, the more I realise how little I know about a great many things.


So I signed up to re take my GCSE/O level/High school maths. I start in October. £45. Bargain. One of the questions I have to answer to is “Where do you want this qualification to take you?” I’m tempted to answer “To the edge of the universe” but feel I might raise a few eyebrows considering I can’t do long division without a calculator. So I’ll probably stick to “Further education”

As a musician I always have the urge to set my guitar up and record. I find the hours fall away when I’m engrossed with recording. I’m very lucky, now that my children are at school, that I have a great deal of time on my hands during the day. But I fear when asked what I did today ‘Recording ideas for songs’ might be misinterpreted as ‘fuck all’

I enjoy writing. Blogs, stories, articles you name it. I haven’t written for a long time and it gets me all knotted up inside. I find it soothing, a bit like hoovering really. It releases anger and stress. So I need to do more of it.

I love to learn. I love learning new things. I love to explore. I like to say yes. Saying yes invites the possibility of new things, experiences and people into your life. Saying yes opens the door into an otherwise undiscovered world. I don’t know where I stand. I feel like I’m in the minority. I feel most people don’t necessarily want to learn new things. New skills. New lessons. I feel most people just want to reinforce what they already know. Even if it’s untrue. Maybe I’m talking wildly out of turn or maybe I’m bang on the money. I just don’t know.

All I know is I want the world. I want every taste, every sound, every emotion and every experience I can before my short time on this ball of water is over. It won’t start tomorrow because it’s already started.

Regardless of what atmosphere we are living in the conservation of knowledge must be accelerated. For without it we suffer in stagnation.

“Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known” – Carl Sagan



Integrating consumerism

This week’s blog comes in two parts.

There were two stories that cropped up this week that grabbed my attention. Not wanting to sacrifice either one I’ve decided to give you both barrels..So to speak.

Part 1.
A friend posted an old video of Tommy Robinson, former EDL founder and current prick, on a ride along in Luton and getting into a scuffle with a local resident. Who I can only assume was a practiser of the muslim faith. The comments section played host to the intelligent and articulate along with their ugly step sisters…There was one comment that hooked my eye and it’s a comment I’ve heard and read before. I’ll summarise.

“The trouble with muslims is they come to a christian country and don’t integrate into our society and it causes tensions”

My retorts are twofold..

Anyone who moves to another country will automatically integrate in that country’s society. They’ll use the currency, pay tax, most likely send their children to public schools, learn the language/dialect, live in that time zone etc… If they happen to move to a free country like the UK they may also choose to practice a religion. That’s what integration means. What it doesn’t mean is changing your world view or opinion based on geographical location. My daughter who has Down’s syndrome will, at some stage, require some level of integration. We’re not sure how much but we know there will be some. Whether it’s schools/colleges, living independently or gaining employment.
The reason it causes tensions has nothing to do with integration and everything to do with your inability to co exist on a planet with someone who has different coloured skin.
On a side note, the people who usually bleat on about integration can usually be found on the costa del sol for two weeks of the year eating egg and chips, drinking stella whilst wearing an England football shirt….You know, integrating. Ok that’s probably not fair of me. But who gives a shit?


Part 2.

On September 19th Apple will release their latest product… The iPhone 6. Not to be one to get overly excited with the release of new toys, gadgets or gizmos. Although I did get very excited for the release of Modern Warfare 2. I can never understand the fuss. I still haven’t got an Xbox one, choosing to stick with my trusty 360. But it seems other people don’t share my blasé attitude towards high tech gadgets. This Wednesday a friend photographed someone on Regent St. Camping. Outside the Apple store. 9 days before the release date. I believe he was actually camping out so he could pre order the phone which he could do on Thursday or Friday. I don’t know if he’s still there and frankly I don’t care. I don’t know what pisses me off more. The notion that owning the latest toys before anyone else will somehow improve your life, an idea that Regent St. consumer clearly has. Or that people are free to camp outside a shop, on the streets for days on end and remain un molested by the authorities. However if you were to stand outside the same shop protesting at their tax avoidance you can be sure that you would be moved on in a matter of hours, let alone days.


To me this is what is really wrong with our society. People can live on the streets to be first in line to spend, spend, spend. You’ll receive a pat on the head for being a good little consumer.  But to raise a voice against it? Well, be prepared to get shut down by men wearing big black boots.

“Ending is better than mending. The more stitches, the less riches…”

– Aldous Huxley Brave new world